Forgiveness sets you free. I really have a problem with forgiving someone who has wronged me or hurt me because to me forgiving them meant I was telling that person it was OK what they did to me. Since it was clearly not OK what they did, I was not forgiving – at all, period.
What I realized that my lack of forgiveness was actually hurting myself. Someone (ok it was Adrien Blackwell the amazing theta healer I’m always talking about) said holding onto the anger, hurt, resentment, etc. was like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. When I heard this light bulbs immediately went off. The statement is spot on.
I got Adrien’s healing audio on forgiveness and it was the best money I ever spent. When I listened to it the first time she asked who is the first person you need to forgive? The immediate answer that popped into my head was MYSELF!
I was a millionaire. I had a Ferrari, horses, a life of travel, wintering in Florida, and the luxury to do whatever I wanted. Then I lost ALL of it. People mocked me. How could you loose $3 million they would say. My husband hounded me about it. I felt guilty and have been suffering and struggling financially since 2008 with no hope in sight and constantly having to ask my family for help.
I had a dear friend who hurt me terribly. I’d never gotten over it. I would forget it for a while but it would always come back to haunt me and leave me in tears. Over the 25 years I’ve been with my husband, his words and actions would hurt me. My parents, especially my mother, did unconscionable things to me. Other friends have hurt me too. All of this was eating a hole in my soul because forgiveness was not an option.
The first time I listened to the audio I woke up feeling sad and curled up like a cocktail shrimp and felt it was an epic fail; but, then I listened again.
I woke up feeling like I’d been poisoned. I felt toxic to the point where I knew I had to get it out of my body so I went for a massage and then treated myself to a pedicure.
The next morning I woke up feeling like a billion ton brick had been lifted from my shoulders! I felt FREE and liberated and happy.
I thought about the dear friend who has brought me to tears for years and she didn’t matter. I thought about the money I lost and thought, eh, I’ll get it back soon enough. A guy whose very name would set me on edge for days actually walked into my office and it didn’t phase me one bit.
Forgiveness doesn’t mean it’s ok what they did to you; but it does set you free.
That freedom gives you the power to manifest the life you truly want by letting go of everything that’s holding you back.
So true…